I don’t normally post personal blogs, it’s not really my style to go all soppy or talk about the feelings that I feel, albeit rare. It is around this time that I would normally, like the previous three years, get my bags packing and looking forward to a new year of a swan invested hill-built city called Lincoln. However this is not the case and I am stuck here in the dark grey city, most famously known for a ruined cathedral and a naked lady on a horse – Coventry.
Finding work is an absolute ball-ache. Plain and simple. You are either ‘too qualified’ or ‘not experienced enough.’ – What is this ‘too qualified’? and how am I meant to gain experience if I can’t get a job? It is the problem of the average graduate and it is only the lucky few that actually have a job in their chosen area within months of finishing their course. Of course to those who never went to University and entered the world of work may just look at us graduates and smirker at our issues of finding work, deeming us whiney as they say “I knew it wouldn’t get me anywhere that’s why I didn’t go and look where I am now.” The truth is, they never left education you never truly do, to work up anywhere there is usually training course involved and often a qualification and although it may seem like three years was enough it really isn’t. Whilst at uni I did know and fully understand that the job I want isn’t going to be handed to me on a plate when I finish. But somehow without realising it, I always expected it to be that easy, or at least didn’t quite expect it to be this hard. I have now ventured into the world of Freelance to build a name for myself and a better portfolio because that is one thing I do regret from University. I have a damn awful portfolio which shows my ambition, but not the results.
Yes it is hard and yeah it is a ball-ache but I graduated almost two weeks ago and at the time I thought I would miss going to university, having the lingering thought of everything above in my head. As stated earlier it is now at that time that I should be going to Lincoln and all I think now is, I am glad I’m not. I don’t miss it, Lincoln will always be a big place for me and maybe someday in the future, living there might seem like a good idea. But three years was enough in that environment, I don’t miss university at all. I do miss the people of course and the friends I have made but it feels better or rather it feels like a weight has been lifted that I don’t have to associate myself with being a student anymore. Freedom and independence is definitely something that comes after uni, rather then when you arrive at the halls.
To summarise: I miss my Lincoln friends, Lincoln itself and even the swans, but I don’t miss being a student. I welcome working life with open arms and a tight hug. – I’m also happy to announce I’m filming and funding (with a serious head) my own film, might as well start somewhere.
Working title: “But I’m A Lesbian”
Tagline: Coming out the closet is hard – Going back in is harder.
genre: Drama-comedy
… Sundance here I come.
